Khody Golden
Professor Sonia Begert
English 101
25 April 2014
Positive
Outcomes from Negative Choices
There are many quotes that state the
same basic meaning, and that is, you learn from all your mistakes. I did not
know the truth in this statement until I made a big enough mistake to really
open my eyes.
This mistake was my freshman year in
high school, when I was young and probably the most unintelligent I ever was.
This took place at North Kitsap High School on a bright Monday afternoon. I
remember the day very vividly, in fact I remember that this particular day I
had a bad feeling in my stomach, but I didn’t think much of it. I was outside
during our lunch break and my friends and I were playing hacky sack. My friends
were Nick, Eli, and Jalen. They were, and still are, some pretty good
acquaintances of mine. Jalen had mentioned going off campus for something
during lunch, but I didn’t hear what exactly he said or where he said they were
going.
My friends look over at me and ask if I
would like to come with them, and me being the dumb freshman kid I was, said
yes. Without even questioning where we were going. We had walked across the
school, and my friends were looking around at all the people and acting very
suspicious. We finally arrive over at the side of the Tech building, and we all
stop. At this point I still have no clue what is going on, I figured we just
moved our hacky sack circle to over here.
Jalen then proceeds to set down his
bag, reach in, and pulled out a pipe and a bag of marijuana. It is not until
this moment I realize what is going on, and now it is too late, I am guilty by
association at this point. I recall being more nervous than I had ever been, my
stomach got even more upset. He smokes on some of it and passes it the other
way, but eventually it gets to me. I had never smoked before, and I figured it
would be okay because that’s what my friends were doing. I took the hit,
inhaled the smoke, and then blew it out. As soon as this cloud of smoke clears,
I see a face in the distance.
That face was that of our school security
guard. Now this is much more than I had anticipated for my day. My first
reaction is to attempt to get rid of the evidence and run. I then throw the
pipe into the sticker bushes, glance at my friends, and get ready to run. As I
turn to go, I see another security guard to block the other path out. I was
trapped. I remember just thinking in my head “My mom is going to kill me”.
We were then escorted into the office,
where the police had already been called and were waiting for us to arrive at
the office. This had to be the longest most miserable walk of my life. I didn’t
know what was going to happen next and I recall at least 1,000 thoughts and
worries that crossed my mind. We arrived at the office to the entire head
school faculty along with some police officers. They asked us to each write statements,
and I refused to talk or write anything until my mom had arrived. I remember
trying to give no information to the police in order to try and save myself
from any trouble I could. My mom shows up to the school, and I remember the
disappointment in her face so vividly that it is stuck with me forever. After
all the talking and paperwork was done at the school I was suspended from
school for 20 days and was not arrested. My mother was so distraught; she
wouldn’t even speak to me for 3 days after the fact. I knew I had messed up big
time.
When my mother finally decided to speak
to me again, she let me know how disappointed and angry was, she couldn’t
understand why I would be so dumb. I had no explanation for myself and felt
like I had let my entire family down. I began to feel sorry for myself, like it
was never going to get better since I have a criminal record now. I only felt
this way for a short period of time. The next feeling I had about this
situation was one that made me quit moping around and to fix things.
From this point on I have always
watched who I associated myself with. I also bettered myself as an individual.
I realized that what I was doing and who I was hanging out with was not going
to get me anywhere in life. I made many big changes in my life and during this
process I happened to pick up a new hobby, lifting weights. Now I lift every
single day, and use all my extra energy for something positive.
I took this negative event from my
life, learned from my mistake, and ended up with a positive outcome. It was all
in the way I decided to handle it, I could have sat back and just let my life
slowly but surely get more and more out of control. I chose to do something and
use this mistake as an opportunity to fix things that I did. That is why this
experience is so important and memorable to me. Even though it was a terrible
and negative thing, it helped me shape who I am today. I managed to turn this
into a good thing for my life. After all was said and done, my mother was very
proud of the progress and changes I had made. I also will never forget that
face she made when I had manned up and completed my community service to
complete all of my court requirements. Seeing her face filled with ultimate joy
and relief, made it one of the most memorable and important moments of my life.
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